Kevin McEvenue's Wholebody Focusing Blog
“When a part of me is able to feel loved, it awakens to its own healing!”
My eyes
my whole Being
a live camera
with no film
to record or to remember
the thousands of trees
the vast dirt fields
the stubble
the long-ago-fallen trees.
Sunlight sprinkles itself
over the surfaces of
winding waterways.
No film to show
only my Body
recording
the land
the furrows of
the fields the gray
clouds
The platinum
glow of our sun.
My eyes
approve.
My Body
has it.
Elizabeth Morana
I have been writing Haiku about the energetic patterns of my days. I write them fast with very little editing to capture the moment and post them to Twitter.
I love the format of Haiku and have always used it to describe my urban experiences even though it is traditionally known as a form of poetry honoring nature. Since I love urban life so much, I include the urban built environment as part of “nature.” It is a product of humanity, therefore, for me, a part of nature. Almost everything we touch in cities is part of nature in some way. My very large apartment complex, for example, is constructed from bricks made from the clay residue of the glacier that became the Hudson River. I take great comfort in this as someone might living in a log cabin.
I caught myself wondering
what it is like
being water.
Not what it would be like.
And then I realized
I was explaining—
or something was,
and has been for a while—
explaining
what it is like being water.
Someone invisible
has been coaching me.
I’ve been a good student
listening so carefully because
I need to know.
Something at my core
yearns for this.
Water wants me to know
what it is
and
that I am THAT too.
Look, it says
like a swimming coach
This is water.
This is what it is like
to be water.
I already exist
Rather than make myself Be Someone
or Be Some Way
Just notice me-here.
I’m here!
No need to be someone else.
The Great Good already exists.
Rather than trying to manufacture It,
to prove Its existence to someone else,
or to convince It to Do Something.
Just notice It-Here.
Can you sit quietly and Notice It?
Can you capture a glimpse of It
now and then?
It’s Here!
No need to Make-It-Happen.
Elizabeth Morana
Photo Credit: Maria Hakasalo
MELTING POINT
A judging mind
who crush and shrink, burden and destroy
You come out from the nooks of my mind
seizing me with full of shame
Could I shake you off so that no one notices
how dark and ugly you are?
Welcome, judging mind
Welcome home
Welcome to my arms, welcome to be seen
Welcome to the warmth of my embrace
to the shine of the sun
there you soften
forget your job
begin to melt and love
Photo credit: Maria Hakasalo
BRAVE ENOUGH?
My hands
Stretched out far away from my body
sad and lonely
Overloaded
Asking, do I suffice, am I good enough
My feet
Marching
Every step hearing a drum cadence repeating
Lazybones Lazybones Lazybones
I will show you I am not a lazybones! I’ll do and do and do!!!
Even though I am too tired of doing anything
Something in me
Gently raises a question
Are you Brave
Are you Brave enough to think
I will lead you where you need to be?
Am I?
Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 15
Being with the pain
That is trauma residue
Takes grounding and love.
Photo Credit: Anonymous
Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 21
When upset, I ask
What does my body need now?
Then I notice me.
Frequently writing Haiku about my WBF discoveries not only helps me document what is emerging but also helps me to sustain the new healing.
As I was preparing for bed a few weeks ago, I noticed that I felt defeated. There were so many challenges that made me anxious and fearful that I wondered if it were useless to try to sleep. My husband and I have been experiencing serious health problems for the last year and a half and it feels exhausting to be in this place.
The words “what does my body need now?” came to me. I thought I would give it a try. As a got into bed, I felt into my body as I asked this question. My hands moved. They landed crossed, on my upper chest with my hands near my shoulders. It felt so comfortable and comforting. The next thing I remembered is that I woke up at 6:00 AM. I had slept through the night and my hands were still in this position. It was as if I had given myself a seven hour Reiki treatment.
