Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 21
When upset, I ask
What does my body need now?
Then I notice me.
Frequently writing Haiku about my WBF discoveries not only helps me document what is emerging but also helps me to sustain the new healing.
As I was preparing for bed a few weeks ago, I noticed that I felt defeated. There were so many challenges that made me anxious and fearful that I wondered if it were useless to try to sleep. My husband and I have been experiencing serious health problems for the last year and a half and it feels exhausting to be in this place.
The words “what does my body need now?” came to me. I thought I would give it a try. As a got into bed, I felt into my body as I asked this question. My hands moved. They landed crossed, on my upper chest with my hands near my shoulders. It felt so comfortable and comforting. The next thing I remembered is that I woke up at 6:00 AM. I had slept through the night and my hands were still in this position. It was as if I had given myself a seven hour Reiki treatment.
In the days following, I noticed a shift. When a situation arose, I didn’t have to “check” in with my body what it needed. The answer was just there.
“Did I want to work on taxes right now?”
“No! I needed to finish my film project.”
“Did I want to be part of a committee to make important decisions?”
“No! I just wanted to play.”
“Could I take on a new responsibility?”
“No! I had to organize myself to be with the responsibilities that were already there.”
I am noticing ME as my first reaction to a situation. It is coming from my body and out my mouth before I can get a chance to filter it. In the past, when someone wanted me to do something, I would usually say yes first and think about it later. That caused a lot of stress because, while I may come to know how I really feel about something later, I would never want to renege on my agreement to take on a responsibility.
Old feelings emerged. Was I being selfish? Would this new assertion of my needs alienate people? These are the same feelings that lead me to say yes to most of what people asked of me, however, now I was having them after I declined to do the whatever was asked of me. I had the opportunity to see in real time what the result was of my going with what my body needed. Sometimes people were surprised. Sometimes they were amused. Sometimes they agreed that I needed to take care of myself. No one has disowned me or started to not return my calls. And, I felt less stress and anxiety because I was doing what my body needed rather than what others might want of me.
Writing about what comes for us in any format supports our WBF work by continuing the healing that is already in progress. I encourage all who read this blog to share their own experiences with shifts and new ways of living. You can do this as a contributor to the blog.
Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 15 Reiki Haiku # 8
Being with the pain Using self Reiki
That is trauma residue For all that is coming now
Takes grounding and love. Opens up freedom
Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 16 Reiki Haiku #9
When there are stressors Family trauma faced
Allowing movement steadies At a holiday gathering
The nervous system With Reiki power
Wholebody Haiku # 17 Reiki Haiku # 10
When progress is made Love conquered
New shifts need to be noticed What was hard to feel inside
So that they can stay All ended gently
Wholebody Haiku # 18 Reiki Haiku # 11
When good things happen Distance Reiki for
I hold space for all that comes When you cannot be with her
With an open heart Enjoy the energy bath
Wholebody Focusing # 19 Reiki Haiku # 12
When challenges pop Reiki a problem
And there is nowhere to go Before you need to face it
Go inside and move! It resolves itself
Wholebody Focusing # 20 Reiki Haiku # 13
What does my heart need? Self Reiki each dawn
Slowing down to listen now Helps calm our troubled psyche
This is new to me Even if we cannot
Wholebody Focusing Haiku # 21 Reiki Haiku # 14
When upset, I ask Ego let go now
What does my body need now? Let Reiki energy through
Then I notice me Thanks for the healing