Trouble Resting

By Elizabeth Morana

I’m afraid of this day
and the demands therein
so I lie awake
electricity a low hum
under me
running through my cells
Two hours before
awakening time

I resist this moment
and keep resisting
Can I let myself Be Here?
In this unwanted moment?

No.
I am caught up with the fear
that I won’t be able to be-in
some future moment of
this coming day

I cannot be-here at all

Oh, how I long to
Be here now.

And having really
Yearned that
My body stretches
relaxes
And I lie down
If not to rest
At least
To be here.

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  1. I was really intrigued by your being afraid of the day Elizabeth and then the clarification that you were afraid that you won’t be able to be-in some future moment of this coming day>
    I know that feeling – thank you for putting words to it. Amazing how putting words to it changes something. Thank you!

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