When Kevin started speaking I noticed my spine. It immediately become aware of itself. First there was an awareness of how each part related to the part adjacent and then there was a sensation of the wholeness of my spine. It was effortless to be with this wholeness. Some movement came and the awareness of the wholeness of my spine was still there. It was satisfying and it was enough.
Diana Scalera
Thank you for this Kevin,
I really liked how you said at the beginning I need to find you there before I can find me here. That makes sense to me it’s like going in to find me here is too much too close like ‘how are you today’ feels. Then I remembered how hard it is to find a you there without a me here. It feels like a balancing act one a really top level difficult one that needs much more practice for me.
Dear Gabe, your experience of finding me here all on your own can really get in the way of just doing that like you suggested. It is too close up, there isn’t the right distance between a sense of you and what is going on there in you. When people would ask me “how are you Kevin” what comes in me because a complete blank. I have actually closed down completely. I freeze. I need to find a distance in some what, like feeling a physical presence of something else that I can hold on to, first. Then I can feel a sense of me coming through. Maybe just some breathing room. Kevin
Dear Kevin,
I liked your story of freezing inside and something too close it helped me to gain more knowing of my own freezing and also my too openness and vulnerability.
So when I take as much time as it needs to find me here connected to something outside of me, something I can trust, like the chair – then maybe I can find you there. Not a letting go of my safety of the chair here and jumping right over to you leaving myself open and vulnerable and way too easily to hurt. But a delicate and tentative checking if it’s okay like a peeking out from behind a rock knowing that it takes a lot of time to let someone in. And a ‘holding both,’ both the safety of the chair and the possibility of finding a you there. Then when and if I find a you there I must also keep hold of my safe base my something outside of me like my chair. I can’t let that go and the good thing is that even if I forget about it, it is still there – I can find it again – kicking and screaming it will still be there!
A balancing act to practice.
Thank you Kevin. I know you are not physically present as I listen to this recording but you are very much with me. I can sense that I allow the table, chair, floor to support me – I don’t need to hold myself away from them. There is a feeling of a hum and a very soft wave – peace, quiet, calm. My body is at ease and I am present to the air going in my nose and down my throat, the rise and fall of my chest and even the fine movement of my lips with the breath. Such peace to spend this time with you. From this place of peace, I can be with myself in all my dimensions and feel your voice resonating Ah, this is Kevin and I am grateful.Thank you!! Kit
A wonderful moment to witness how another’s human voice can offer back a sense of ourselves so profoundly! Kevin
Dear Kevin,
I’ve been listening to these intunements every now and then and have not able to sign in to write my comments, and I’m happy to have found my way here this morning to say that these opportunities to hear your intunements are invaluable to me.
Last night, as I listened again to this particular one, there were moments of space and silence, and it came to me that it was not just ‘silence’….I knew that you were ‘with’ the listener…with me….and that this is exactly what the silence means in heartfelt connection….silence is listening…silence in this case is someone being-with-me-as-I awaken-to-the-more-that-is-coming-for-me.
Amazing that it can even happen when listening to a recording. And it occurs to me that this is because you spoke from your real, true being. And I listened to you from the real true me. May it always be so.
with thanks for this, and more,
Elizabeth
Dear Elizabeth
Thank you for a fresh sense of what silence can be….. listening…..alive in the silence….. and present! Thank you
Kevin
Your question, Kevin: “what comes to you loud and clear?”
In me, within the Me who is grounding and experiencing the ways the chair holds, supports me. The Me who, feeling a cooling breeze on my legs remembers that air/atmosphere supports me. It keeps me from flying away or being smashed into the earth.
The Me who is resting into this Wholeness of be-ing. Resting into and with the ways that air moves in and through and out of me. The Me who hears chimes on the trees and the small bell of our cat.
This Me spoke very loud. Clear. Spoke simply and directly to me. Spoke firmly/gently to me. This Me said “just be”.
Just. Be.
Just…….. BE.
Nothing more. Just.
BE.
And in that Be-ing-ness comes a Quiet, as if rolling in like a gentle fog. A Quiet that my nervous system has been desperately needing for far too long. A Quiet that is satisfying. Assuring. Calming.
All of this coming to me, within me, because the resonance of your voice allows just the right degree of resonance in me.
Just BE.
Just Me.
Because of You.